Major Mood Swings
January 23, 2026
Information
I’ve been having really weird mood swings today. Little things are upsetting me and overwhelming me. Today, I went out to my truck and it was a mess from the last time Geddy was in it. This REALLY upset me for some reason and I’m aware that the reaction I’m feeling isn’t logical or reasonable for the event that happened, but even still… I didn’t communicate well to Greg what was bothering me, and he seemed to think it was funny. This didn’t go over well. Greg tried to make things lighter by making jokes which normally works, but not today. I’m a bear to be around. I want to stay close to him but everything is irritating me. I’m not communicating well. My truck having dog drool on the windows and head rest is seriously bugging me. Once I cleaned it, I felt better overall. But lots of little triggers today. This feels foreign to me.
I Feel
Irritable, guilty, overwhelmed, frustrated, bi-polar, on edge, motivated, energized, mentally tired, conflicted, afraid.
What I’m Grieving / What I Wish
I wish I felt regulated. I wish I understood and could stop the mood swings. I wish I didn’t feel so crazy. I wish I could just rest in Greg’s arms. I wish I could get done everything on my mind. I’m grieving my sanity today haha. I wish it was a normal day, and I wish I didn’t feel I was lashing out at my man.
What This Connects To
Me feeling guilty for my emotions. My dad on my case about my vehicle being a mess and me striving for it to not be and it falling short. Me feeling like I can’t articulate my words well and feeling unheard or unvalued. The feeling of chaos inside me that I hadn’t felt in a year. The fear that I’m not a good fiancé, or woman.
What I Need Right Now
I need food, hydration, space, quiet time with God. I need to extend some grace to myself. I need a nap. I need to realize that days like this will happen.
Prayer
God, I thank you for being so close to me right now and for never leaving me. I am grateful that even though I don’t understand my feelings right now, you do. Lord, forgive me for where I have fallen short today, and where I may have hurt feelings or been more reactionary than reasonable. Help me navigate this time. Thank you for giving me a patient man that loves me that is still showing me what it looks like to be loved. Lord, bless him. Keep drawing us closer to You. I am so grateful for everything you are healing me from and bringing me through. Thank you God.